Steve forgotten.

So it finally happened, I left Steve somewhere that I had no ability to get him back from. As I spent the first few hours a little anxious I eased into being able to be at peace that he was safe at the very least and I could get him back in the morning.

The day continued on, very long day. I got to enjoy some one on one time with some people that have invested into my life for the past year which something I crave. I am a one on one kind of guy....I learn the most from those interractions. Steve I also learn from the most when it is just he and I that is when I can observe how he grows the best. Because my attention is focused on him. Not that I can't have a conversation with many people but I CRAVE that one on one attention because its devoted and single minded...I think thats because a big thing that God has made clear to me is that intimacy of any kind is something I crave. I like that devoted attention. I love being alone with a person because you see the real person.

So the day continued, big event lots of work and 4 or 5 hours later and we head out to feed the homeless with the leftover pizza and coffee we had. We went to a place where I knew a guy was camped out but he wasn't there but there were two guys there, Jim and Jaime. These guys were cool. We might as well have been sitting on their front porch. Jaime was a guy who recently started going back to church but hurt his shoulder racing a guy on his bike...I know, crazy! Jim was recently let out of the hospital for something I'm not sure what because I spent the time we were there just chillin with Jaime. He told some funny jokes and I admire his outlook on his situation right now. He wasn't really discontent with how he was living but desired a home. I think back how often the circumstances aound me upset me even though I should know better. Too often I let life dictate my relationship with God instead of my relationship with God dictating life. Thats all I got for now.