Obviously that wasn't my intention...

           Yesterday, I noticed that there are specific events during the day where something will happen and something that I don't expect happens. Whether its good or bad it always amazes me how much my heart really controls what I'm doing and what I'm not doing. For example, yesterday a friend of mine was getting upset over something and as they told me about the situation in more detail I started to get frustrated with them to the point of being more bitter and upset than they were in the first place. Obviously that wasn't my intention but this specific event triggered something in me that hurt pretty bad to override what I knew was the proper response and to ellicit the ugly one that came out. Example number two, last night I was leading worship for the Youth group I help with and I was deciding what to play beforehand and without thinking about the songs or the lyrics of the songs themselves my heart spoke and picked songs that were all centered around wanting to be near God, seeking him and giving him everything. That wasn't my intention but my heart and spirit had other plans. I hadn't spent any time alone with God all day so my heart decided to cry out for some intimacy with my Lord. Those are the moments I know my heart wants God. Those are the moments when I know I'm changed when my head isn't in it and my flesh is weak but my heart and spirit take control and just do what I know is right without me knowing. God is so awesome that while we have a mind for the logical and foreground thinking we have a heart that pumps away in the background doing what is necessary for me. Now, that isn't always the best thing because there are still hurts and pains that my heart responds to faster before I can get my head to check if this is the right thing to do. This changes my whole perception of the function of our heart and our minds. If I consult the spirit, act with my heart and check my actions with my mind then how can I not live as a man after God's own heart.
           My first example, to follow up on that, I was later convicted and lead to apologize to that person because my behaviour wasn't encouraging in the right way and wasn't the right action as his brother in christ to engage in. So, thats where it comes back around. I just acted with no consultation of my spirit or my mind and it lead me into sin which later lead to confession and repentance. Because repentance is a change of how you operate.  So I encourage those who read this to examine their hearts and see what actions are becoming of God and those that aren't then seek God to change those that aren't and praise him for those that are.