Diligence takes....Capturing.

I started this blog a couple days ago and never really got to writing it. I meant to and just didn't have exactly what I wanted to say.

I have always been that guy who thinks through all scenarios before moving forward with something. Which is funny because I usually say things without thinking and it has always bothered me that the two do not coincide with each other... or do they? I would think it's just the same game with a different name. One involves action and one involves words. Diligence and integrity for that matter like I wrote before requires those two things to line up. It is almost imperative to being able to call myself a man of integrity since the definition is just that lining up your words and actions. So since I analyze everything else, why do I struggle so much with analyzing the things I say? Why do I find it difficult to control my tongue? Is it because one is more important than the other is it more important for the action to be Good and righteous and my word to be void of purpose. I don't think so since "Faith without works is dead" and from what I know of faith it is being sure enough to say that something will happen and works just meaning my actions. Then the real question comes down to is it a priority for me to live and say things that are pleasing to God. And if not then why? Do I lack the ability to control my tongue? On my own yes, with the aid of the Holy Spirit I would say not. So ultimately, that is a no.

I think it really has to do with that I do not have a full understanding of the affect of my words consistently. I will say things off the cuff and not think twice until I am later apologizing realizing that I have said something I shouldn't have. I need something to help me get it beforehand. I am detail oriented and so every little comment or action to me has some effect like a pebble in the pond sending ripples but my words I feel don't hold the same weight or at least that is how I treat it. I know otherwise but getting that to hit my heart is difficult I lack the wisdom and compassion in my flesh that would forge that priority to have control over my tongue or at the very least and almost more importantly take my thoughts captive. This thought captivating thing is tough though. It takes that diligence thing. It takes dedicated vigilance and forced action when I don't want to do it which means it's going to be tough. But the joy of the lord is my strength, and he has created me to be a man of integrity who is willing to maintain that through capturing his thoughts at all times to endure to the end and be a good and faithful servant.