Days 6-8 and Day 9

So the past three days have been a rollercoaster. Which is not a phrase I commonly apply to my life. I truly and honestly do not worry much and while I may have concern or have to expand out something I really am not stressed out over it. The past three days I let myself get stressed. Saturday, I did nothing... until I went to work then I worked and work was the same as it always is I was slightly more positive and grateful for the job but as the night progressed I became frustrated as I always do. Why? Because my phone had become soaked with water and wasn't working most of the night. I go home and phone is fine. God is good again even when I don't deserve it at all. Sunday was great woke up early, got to church, was in a very positive and etifying mood. My phone was still acting a little strange but not a big deal. I got to worship God with my friends and have a great conversation about what God was doing in me. I left my lights on so my car needed jumped and had to wait an hour... but still chipper. Then I get to work and the load seems to be heavier and I learn that my hours are getting cut. Thats ok because I am looking for another job... trying to stay positive only works so far. Luckily, I had a cd to listen to numb the pain. Still very little time with God spent at this point. Yesterday, I spent time in the word and took care of some stuff I needed to take care of then just did nothing till work. This is where I got into trouble.... I should have gone home and spent that time in the Word like I knew I needed and was being drawn to do but I ignored his cry to me and I did what I wanted. This is where I saw my day shift from being an enjoyable day. I went to work already upset that I had shorter hours. When I approached my manager about it she gave me the reason that didn't satisfy me and led to me talking in a way that was not etifying behind her back. The rest of the night I did everything at work with a resentful attitude. This is not me. I have grown beyond spite. This is my repentance. So Here I stand its day 9 and I have spent three days holding on to a ledge trying to climb back up and I need your hand. I've always needed Your hand. Put Your hand upon me today, Lord. Grip me in a way that breaks this cycle I have repeated oh so many times. I am staying close to you.

Todd's Challenge for Day 9 6 (Lets try again):
In all of the world I have never seen anyone who will dispute that a Positive will attract another Positive... Why would we think that? Yet in our reactions a Negative will always attract more Negative. Lets restore balance today and for every negative reaction you face create a positive response.

God's Challenge for Day 9 6:

17Obey your leaders and submit to their authority. They keep watch over you as men who must give an account. Obey them so that their work will be a joy, not a burden, for that would be of no advantage to you.

That's it for today see you tomorrow for sure. I refuse to compromise.