Diligence takes.... practice

If practice makes perfect then in order to increase my level of understanding of diligence I must practice diligence with perseverence and waiting and diligence. The things I notice most about my lack of discipline are it's not hard to be diligent when pushed, it's not hard to be diligent when in a group of people, it is when I find myself alone and unfocused that I truly am not disciplined. I get lazy. I am extremely focused when surrounded but distracted when alone. I do see pro's and cons to this behaviour trait. Pro's are that when I am in public I am incredibly consistent, driven and purposed. But when left alone I dwindle time away. I am very control driven in every area of my life but when I am alone. It's like a switch turns off and I just become this fleshy blob. Now this is more physical than spiritual. Although, all systems of thought and feeling are connected (i.e. Mind, Heart, Body, and Spirit). I know that my Heart and Spirit remain constant in all this and that truth be told my body and mind just veto their suggestions in favor of less active responses. I know that this is wrong response but changing a habit that you formed isn't as easy as I thought it would be. In my mind I know I should be more persistent in pursuing purposed time. So today, I take captive the thought to be lazy and will be focused and consistent at all times. In fact I may add to this blog later.